Neptune's Journal

For the first time ever I'm satisfied with the overall look of my site. I knew it'd be a learning curve but I had no idea I'd make such drastic changes so many times...I unfortunately am starting to have a lot of school work so I won't be able to revamp the site during the entirety of my shift like I did yesterday u_u But yeahhhh I'm glad the homepage looks alright in most screen resolutions maybe we'll deal with the way my buttons look on mobile/tablet next. But I think I'll be doing more fun stuff first like starting some shrinessssss ٩(^ᗜ^ )و I don't know whether I should start with FFVII or Castlevania because I know I wanna do something really extra with both of those, maybe I should start with something easier like Gumball or Adventure Time I really have no idea (╭ರ_•́) Anyways very short entry today and happy Valentine's...♡

Okay y'all I'm back in New York and classes started!! Watched Transformers One in the plane and it was actually funny as hell I've always been a teenage mutant ninja turtles and transformers girlie I wish transformers didn't go full on Army propaganda all of a sudden “(°_°) I talked to someone at school and it looks like I could really graduate early which I'm very happy about but that also stresses me out quite a bit regarding grad school apps since my gpa isn't even good all things considered.....

Anyways, what made me write a blog post at all is right in the title, why was I at work telling my coworker about this website on the work computer and it looks absolutely abysmal.. I knew it would look crazy on my Ipad or something but hello this caught me off guard •︵• Cause I looked at some other ones and they used similar code when it comes to sizing and containers and such I don't know what I'm doing wroooooong. My laptop is pretty big I don't even think the work monitor is much bigger, and the changes I was doing in neocities weren't even picking up oh boy it was turrible....Very short post today I have nothing else to say apart from the fact that I can't set up my ps4 when it's the weekend and playing Remake is all I wanna do what the heck!!

Today's my last day at home and I somehow managed to BEAT FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKEEEE!!! It happened like a couple hours ago and I'm still jumping with glee and happiness. I know I shouldn't say this but I've been crap at games for quite a while now so it was a huge confidence boost in that area for me ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ (ps this is like my favorite emoji haha) but yeah Sephiroth...? you're NOTHING. Talking about Sephiroth, I'm starting to be really interested in him. Because similarly for a lot of characters in Final Fantasy (imo unfortunately), people talk the most about how much they want him and it's like yeah sure but I also believe that the way he's written is one of the main reasons why FF7 has been so popular for so long. Now that remake isn't taking all of my time, I'll look up which games have some interesting lore about him because I wanna know this diva's story!! I know folks will call anyone diva these days but he's the quintessential video game diva to me. Writing this is making me want to start my FF7 page so bad but honestly I need to fix my Homepage first before worrying about alladat...

I'm starting school for one day on thursday before the following week when I start the real stuff and working as well. I think I might suffer from *the a word* for real because I was so sad and couldn't eat anything for the past couple of days and always get like this when I have to say goodbye to my parents unfortunately... It is a bit embarrassing since I only remember going through this when I was a wee child not really from middle school onwards. It is what it is though and I do miss my beloved Brooklyn apartment...I decided to bring my ps4 with me too because I want to use it more and one of my friends has been recommending me stuff, I hope this year is the end of my consoles catching dust!!

OKAY...! I can't believe how long it took me to code literally two clickable pages and a homepage that's just pics and vibes. But it is what it is I guess...(ᴗ_ ᴗ。) I was proud of myself at the beginning but now I'm more preocuppied with the things that look wonky and unfinished. I looked it up in my browser's history, and I went on the tutorial website for HTML on December 15th. That means that in a bit more than a month, this is what I was able to do by myself. Phrased like this, it makes me feel a bit better but I can't help imagining how much better it could be. ANYWAYS- I do pat myself on the back for taking the initiative and learning something new instead of just thinking of doing it.

Also as I'm typing this, I have less than a week left of Winter break and am about to be a higher Junior in college. I actually got accepted in a mentorship program with a really nice professor whose field of study really converges with my own interests but I kinda also feel like I'm wasting her damn time ngl :p like omg I love linguistics and lowkey want to study it for the rest of my life but also what the heck could I contribute that hasn't been done by a million linguists already... Hopefully writing this is cathartic and I'll be GROWING this year no more self deprecation!

I also got two tattoos while I was at my mom's which is freaking exciting ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ that makes it seven tattoos on my little skin suit foreverrrr!!! I didn't realize until today but a vast majority of them are giving "place, japan" so I'll redeem myself with cartoon network stuff in the future. Nothing wrong with the otaku lifestyle, that's just not who I am...

Wow that was the most random tangent ever but I just wanted to write a lil blog post on my cute website ( ◡̀_◡́)ᕤ future Neptune, cheer up and relax girl!!

So...I truly don't know what's wrong with me! I think I'm being way too ambitious yet confident in the fact that the website I made up in my head is totally feasible to be coded by me, somoeone who's never coded before, and who's also lacking half the software that would make it a lot easier because of how old my computer is. I'll try putting a picture of what my layout looks like so far. It is a bit crazy to think I made all of this but also after making the grid, the background and the color stuff, I've been making 0 progress. I want to add cute png frames that people make on tumblr, I want to add cute fonts, a gazillion clickable things and many other cool stuff.

But because some functions just haven't been working on visual studio code, I found myself being quite discouraged. I'm gonna get back to grinding soon though! Just thought I'd write about that because the situation is dire... Final Fantasy VII Remake is putting me through the dang torture chamber too I can't catch a break u__u

Okay I might be doing too much but I found myself being really unsatisfied with the look of my website. I will forever be grateful for the people behind my current CSS framework but I think I'll be changing it very soon. Because I literally started this last week I don't know if I'll make a totally different site and site name to keep this as memorabilia/as a solely personal website or if I'll just change the code of this existing one. I found a cool framework at Geo for bootsrap but I'm a little scared it's too advanced for me. I'm the type to go bonkers for personalization as soon as the oportunity shows itself though so it feels inevitable. My Iphone homescreen is entirely personalized icons, all my accent colors are pink, all my devices are covered in countless stickers...I can't help it.

Anyways, it is also Christmas day at nearly 2am, looks like I really enjoy coding the most during the night, so Merry Christmas to me! I had a lovely Christmas Eve with my dad, we ate lots of something called "petits fours", they're like baked appetizers and ours were almost entirely the cheesy kind which is always lovely :P We watched a French comedy classic called "Le père Noël est une ordure" (dropping so much French in this blog post ewww) that was funnier than I anticipated. My dad loved my gift and he actually couldn't figure out what to give me in time :O Hopefully he doesn't feel awful about it because I genuinely know I'm an incredibly complicated person for gifts since I've never felt comfortable fangirling about anything irl. We'll go yarn shopping soon though so that's a perfect gift to me!

I've been exposed to video games my whole life but was never great (or even good) at them. I'd always play open world/choice-based games in my comfort zone for a little while then abandon my consoles for months. But with my growing love for old school gaming I found myself delving into completely unknown territory: JRPGs. I was vaguely familiar with pokemon but never had a handheld console as a kid, so when I decided to watch my first RPG playthrough on youtube and realized it was a fully voiced, story heavy turn-based RPG, I was intrigued. On October 13th, I embarked on the guaranteed 100+ hour journey that are Final Fantasy games. I started with FFX, a popular starting point, and enjoyed myself much more than I thought I would. I didn't love watching the 30-minute battles very much but I sat through most of them (which is, A LOT of them) because the victory felt so incredibly deserved. I then watched some Metal Gear solid 1998 to change things up but somehow couldn't stop thinking about the behemoth and cult classic that is FFVII. The day I decided to jump in, I watched about 12 hours of playthrough in one sitting and didn't really slow down until the finale. The graphics are always a point of contention but they didn't bother me whatsoever, all it did was prove how much can be done without the live-action-like visuals games constantly strive (and overwork developers to death) for nowadays. The story is still being talked about ardently 27 years later and it doesn't look like it's stopping anytime soon as noobs like me are just getting into it. To think it was done seven years before I was born is truly crazy to me...they don't make them like this anymore I fear!

So long story short, I discovered Final Fantasy along with RPGs altogether a couple months ago yet I came home last week and am 20+ hours into FFVII Remake. I'm really happy to be having the most fun I've had with video games in a while and also just having something to gush about (namely: Tifa Lockhart). I'll make many more Blog posts, and fingers crossed maybe an entire website dedicated to FFVII, which I've come to love very dearly.

At first it very much felt like wishful thinking but making this website has cemented this belief I've had for a little while: 2025 is the year of Hobbying. As much as I enjoy being born in the digital age, throughout my life I could never help but feel like generations before me lived their lives to the fullest in a way I never even in my dreams could achieve. People went to life-changing concerts for 15 bucks, everyone was in a band, classmates went to eachother's houses just because, families had 20 years of memories on their camrecorders... And while I'm still waiting for the ticketmaster money laundering trial, I don't think we're getting any of those things back because my pseudo nostalgia isn't stopping the world from changing. However. That doesn't mean there's nothing we can do!

One of the aspects of today's world I truly believe we can regain control over is the things we love and what we do with them. People still love pop stars, people still love video games, people still love fashion. But for whatever (actually easy to pinpoint) reason, now the only valid way to vent about your passions is on the who-can-I-enrage-today-app-that-shall-not-be-named.

What I'm getting at is that you can still talk about your favorite things in the world without literally getting high blood pressure as a consequence. I think things have been looking up for me in unprecented ways the day I started going to my school's crochet club. I had always wanted to pick up a hobby that involved crafts, that seemed attainable, and just fun to do. Since then, I started knitting, started picking up my bass guitar more, dug deeper into all of my console and pc interests and went ahead with this website! The feeling of actually doing something instead of scrolling whenever I have free time is honestly so, so freeing.
As this website becomes more personalized, I'll make sections for each of my hobbies to feel some sort of accountability as my virgo self always needs rules to follow...